Keepsmilinice: March 2006

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Me and Tom Tom

I love this kid :) He is getting so big so fast...i started babysitting him at 2 weeks old.

me and Jesse

Saturday, March 18, 2006

the feelings inside

how can this last for so many years? each time i see you my heart bleeds. you tug at my inner most emotions that can never be put to words. i see you with all the pretty girls and i know i am dreaming that i could be one of them. you are a great friend and i hate being so ugh around you. you bring so much light and spunk into my life. i ask why not me... will i ever have the "right" thing... if you only really knew how hard it is for me.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Family love

Resting with Owen David :) This is the most wonderful feeling ever... I can not wait to share this bond with a child of mine some day. Spending some much needed time with family on Spring Break :)

Owen and his brothers Nicholas and Andrew

Owen is wide awake :)

Monday, March 13, 2006

Tonight I wanna cry

This is an old pic of my crying this past summer.. but I felt the same way last night. I am just so empty without Patch. I could have really used her when I got home from spring break. Things at home were not going so well and I just wanted Patch at my side to talk to her and just cuddle with her by the fireplace. I just miss the companionship with her. She is with me in spirit I know... but tonight I wanna cry. I wanna cry to let all my frustrations go... to ease all my anxiety of student teaching. The message at service tonight hit home with me and how I long to have a loving caring family that just supports one another.

I miss my nieces...